Before my little one came, I didn’t understand why mothers could talk non- stop about their kids. And I definitely didn’t think I’d join the bandwagon…but alas, I not only joined it but become the leader 🙂 For now nearly every word from my mouth, every observation, every comment is Sunshine- related. Guess that’s why they say ‘never say never.’
But you know what, I have no apologies for that, and feel no guilt. We talk about what we feel passionate about, what makes us happy, what gives our lives meaning…and that’s what my baby girl does for me.
And now I see, it is my prerogative…it is every parent’s prerogative. It is ok for me to talk about each new wonder, each memorable moment, each tooth, each step, each fall…the smiles, the hugs, the laughter…even the tantrums…because, this is my new world…my fascinating new world 🙂
Before, I felt guilty that in my eyes, Ss is the most precious child ever. I look at her and I melt in her beautiful big eyes, she’s the sweetest and loveliest and oh so bubbly and full of life…and just like her name, beautiful inside and out, with a heart full of love. But now I no longer feel guilty finding her the most perfect in my eyes, because if I don’t, who will? I think that God created every little child to be the most perfect in his/ her parents’ eyes so that each child will always be perfect to someone and mean the world to someone…so it’s my prerogative and every parent’s to appreciate every little bit of our babies… I don’t think it’s vanity or pride, I feel that the way I feel about my Sunshine being a masterpiece is the way God feels about me being His child…and oh, how comforting that is. And I know it will never matter what she does with her life, what she grows up to look like, whether she’ll be first, last or in- between or what the rest of the world says about Ss, for me she’ll always be the little bit of perfection she’s been since I first saw her.
And so every morning when I wake up and look at my Ss and feel the joy of witnessing God’s perfection in her, I will not feel guilty for appreciating all that she is, all that she has and all that she gives.
Here’s to my precious, beautiful, loving bundle of joy!